life...what now?

in jr tolkens books the hobbits make a comment about their 'tween -age.' i think this is very fitting. now of course hobbits lived a lot longer and did things a bit different then we do, obviously. but being in your twenties is really just an extension of your teenaged years, unless you are one of the one who throw themselves into adult-ness. hm im starting to get fuzzy. i feel stuck. i am doing something i love but its very far away and im not getting ahead. im paying off my loans but just by the minimum...it feels more like i work so i can drive to work...not so useful, especially because i have itchy travelers feet. but there is no extra coming in to save for even a short roadtrip. annoying.

so ive been looking at options. an airline contacted me last year about becoming a flight attendant. which is perfect. so i made sure my online application was up to date. they were looking for flight attendants, the posting closed on january 31st. for the first two weeks of february i checked my inbox everyday. trying to convince myself not to be too eager. but i look back and even now it seems almost like a lifeline. the answer. maybe thats just it. there can't be a perfect answer. life choices can be hard. so ive started looking around the small town where i live with my parents. get a few extra jobs in a small area. easier to get from one to the other. im looking at a tree nursery, the golf course restaurant, and cleaning houses. but all that would mean goodbye to the coffee shop. which does make me a bit sad but i think its time.