life...what now?

in jr tolkens books the hobbits make a comment about their 'tween -age.' i think this is very fitting. now of course hobbits lived a lot longer and did things a bit different then we do, obviously. but being in your twenties is really just an extension of your teenaged years, unless you are one of the one who throw themselves into adult-ness. hm im starting to get fuzzy. i feel stuck. i am doing something i love but its very far away and im not getting ahead. im paying off my loans but just by the minimum...it feels more like i work so i can drive to work...not so useful, especially because i have itchy travelers feet. but there is no extra coming in to save for even a short roadtrip. annoying.

so ive been looking at options. an airline contacted me last year about becoming a flight attendant. which is perfect. so i made sure my online application was up to date. they were looking for flight attendants, the posting closed on january 31st. for the first two weeks of february i checked my inbox everyday. trying to convince myself not to be too eager. but i look back and even now it seems almost like a lifeline. the answer. maybe thats just it. there can't be a perfect answer. life choices can be hard. so ive started looking around the small town where i live with my parents. get a few extra jobs in a small area. easier to get from one to the other. im looking at a tree nursery, the golf course restaurant, and cleaning houses. but all that would mean goodbye to the coffee shop. which does make me a bit sad but i think its time.

caffeine characters

i work at a coffeeshop. i love it. i get to know people by what form of caffeine they prefer...and get to know them before they have caffeine in their system. one such customer i would like to introduce to you today. i don't know his name but his coffee is our biggest size non-fat latte, sometimes he switches it up with our biggest size dark roast. he is a no-nonsense 30-something lawyer and is for some reason the type of customer i take on as a personal customer service challenge...i want to make their day. over the past few months i've worked up a sort of repore with him. and have created this coffeeshop as his personal favorite...how do i know this? yesterday was a stat-holiday. he came in wearing jeans (!) with a completly adorable nutty woman. i saw completly different side of him. he was cuddly, laughing, and joking around. naturally i eavesdropped on his conversation while they were at the till where he announced (without knowing i was listening) that this was the best coffeeshop of its kind. for a self-pronounced people watching specialist this moment is one for the books! you could not wipe the smile off my face for the rest of the day. people are so facinating. i see this guy everyday and always when he is stressed and no doubt on his way to work. i got to see the side of him that i could relate to...the goofy, fun side. a side i would have missed if i had not been scheduled to work that day. makes me think how people percieve me...the gas attendant, the grocery store clerk, the people at church, my customers...the people that only see me for a few minutes a day. i like to think they see the best part of me. its also important to be reminded especially in a customer service job that nasty customers could be perfectly lovely people but are just having a really bad day, or just in desperate need of caffeine.